Anxious.

Thursday evening, when Vince gets off work, we will be driving down to Atlanta to spend the night, and then Friday morning we will continue on to Hattiesburg, MS to Papa's house.

I'm feeling pretty anxious about this trip, and if I'm being honest, I'm really not looking forward to going.  Vince flies home from Gulfport, MS this Sunday, and Bella and I are staying with Papa through Friday.  Andrew and Sarah get to town next Thursday, and we are going to stay a day so we can spend some time with them.

I'm concerned with keeping Bella occupied, because I know she is going to get bored, and taking care of Papa on top of that is going to be a bit challenging.  During the day, I can take Bella to do some stuff for a couple of hours or so because Papa is ok at home by himself as long as he has a phone number to call if he needs to so that helps.

I'm being a little selfish, I know this, but it is really hard to see Papa this way.  I know he isn't suffering, but he is still dying and I am having a hard time with it.  It just makes it that much harder when it's right in front of your face.

He is so excited to see Bella, and I am very happy to be able to take her down to spend some time with him.  This trip will be remembered for the rest of our lives, and I can't wait to take a million pictures of Bella and her Great Grandfather.  All of that though, still doesn't make anything any easier.

I love Papa so much, this is just so hard.